#12 The Stuff That's Happening
We'll see how it goes. Honestly I'm doubtful on what's going on now. Got a plan in my head but, well, ya, I'm in no position to comment...
Anyway, I'm pretty excited/nervous etc... over Who Killed Santa 2! More details to be expected!
I don't feel like I've much choice. Perhaps it's a good thing. o_O
Had a wonderful time with the RP people yesterday; we had simple games and simple talk, but it did wonders for me inwardly. To reconcile myself with the reason I serve in Hope; not for myself, but for people and the One who loves them.
I'm starting to mellow (I hope) on my reactions towards things. Turns out when what I want to happen doesn't happen, or what I need to get doesn't come, I start to get mad. But really, I just want to do it to my best. Discouraged sometimes, you can say; but it comes out as frustration. This weekend came with the realisation that often, little or no control is in my hands (honestly, I just want to cry out that I have no control and I feel like a robot...); I just have to go along. And when I'm in the dark over most stuff, that's when it gets even scarier. I guess that's what's faith's about eh? And I sincerely pray that whatever I do, it will be the best of what I can come out with my limitations.
And then we had another simple mahjong gathering, Darryl, Jerrome, Elaine, Heng Yu and myself, at my house. Gosh, I needed the rest and the fellowship, as well as the subsequent prayer and sharing time. Makes me wonder, why am I so blessed to:
1. Be protected and supported by a group of friends who genuinely care for me.
2. Know it in my heart.
And I just want to shout out: Hallelujah!
And that's to the glory of God.
Lastly, I just want to know more about the people I am serving with. More about them inwardly than what I can see... More more more!
Anyway, I'm pretty excited/nervous etc... over Who Killed Santa 2! More details to be expected!
I don't feel like I've much choice. Perhaps it's a good thing. o_O
Had a wonderful time with the RP people yesterday; we had simple games and simple talk, but it did wonders for me inwardly. To reconcile myself with the reason I serve in Hope; not for myself, but for people and the One who loves them.
I'm starting to mellow (I hope) on my reactions towards things. Turns out when what I want to happen doesn't happen, or what I need to get doesn't come, I start to get mad. But really, I just want to do it to my best. Discouraged sometimes, you can say; but it comes out as frustration. This weekend came with the realisation that often, little or no control is in my hands (honestly, I just want to cry out that I have no control and I feel like a robot...); I just have to go along. And when I'm in the dark over most stuff, that's when it gets even scarier. I guess that's what's faith's about eh? And I sincerely pray that whatever I do, it will be the best of what I can come out with my limitations.
And then we had another simple mahjong gathering, Darryl, Jerrome, Elaine, Heng Yu and myself, at my house. Gosh, I needed the rest and the fellowship, as well as the subsequent prayer and sharing time. Makes me wonder, why am I so blessed to:
1. Be protected and supported by a group of friends who genuinely care for me.
2. Know it in my heart.
And I just want to shout out: Hallelujah!
And that's to the glory of God.
Lastly, I just want to know more about the people I am serving with. More about them inwardly than what I can see... More more more!
posted by Windez at 8:09 AM
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