Friday, March 30, 2007

#84 Thank God!

For Glenn, Wei Hong and Jerrome for helping with the camp filming. I sincerely have to apologise for the late informing but these brothers were awesome with accepting the assignment! I've just watched two out of three out of the tapes and I must say there is great potential in what we can do with the clips that we have.

Some styles I've noticed:
Glenn employs a close-up technique and fast cuts.
Wei Hong and Jerrome a stable and sustained capture person.
Jerrome is a little more advantaged by nature of his course, playing with more angles.

Did you know:
1. Less than 1/10 of the total video captured is used in the final video product.
2. The heavier the video camera, the greater the inertia and hence the easier it is to remain stable. Of course, a heavier camera also means we get tired more easily.
3. Because of the advent of non-linear video editing, the videos that you see may not have been shot in chronological order of appearance.

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To be a biblical influence in the media and music industries, that's what we can be, RP! Work small, think big!

#83 Oh Oh!

First sign of the internal spiritual battle!

I. Have. Got. To. Go. Sleep. Keep. Early. Nights. Okay?

Pat me on the back if I succeed. It is now officially 11.20pm, so I shall sleep by 12 midnight for starters.

I will succeed.

Oh and I've made the decision to cut back on my gluttony; I've vowed to cut down on excessive food-gorging-for-the-sake-of-growing-fat-because-it-doesn't-work-and-I'm-killing-myself.

Because though it doesn't show, science does.

Oh yeah and, my nightmares are back. o_O


*Edit* I failed to meet the midnight deadline. LOL!

#82 Tapping Non-stop

So nervous. Going to give my first counseling session since the Gen Next Camp '07 partnering with God. Think I will set up a date and prepare a teaching to help. This time it will be a success.

By faith,

My very first test in victory living today concerns a brother who I really care, who I noticed was missing but who by my lack of willpower did not express concern. I repent. I wasn't blind but I did not take the chance. But now I will.

The service. The healing rally. God knows how many people ask me where you went. Heng Yu. Jovin, Sharon. I state it here for your benefit.

Proverbs 17:17 A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.

You. Matter. To. God. You. Really. Do. If you understand that then you understand that you matter to me too, bro.

In any case, Proverbs 15:33 speaks to me. Teach me humility however hard it is.

#81 A Growing Generation

Generation Next '07 has taught me much about what I have to improve, on my attitude towards situations and towards God.

Many factors contributed my thinking within this camp, partly my ex-shepherd, Jovin's accident, my personal opinions of my abilities, what should have been done, what others think of me, the numerical strength of RP and my personal insecurity within.

I saw weakness inside and exemplified it. As a result, I became weak. It often exasperates me the way man has a tendency to look below his standard and descend even further in his lack of hope. It became easy for me to pretend to be mechanical in my interactions whenever I became uncomfortable.

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Form & Character

The world thinks of holiness outwardly, but biblical holiness starts inwardly.
The holiness of form will be destroyed by the carnality of character.
Likewise the carnality of form will be overwhelmed by the holiness of character.
For form is as temporal as people are alive one day and dead the next.
Form is like the castle that stands tall on a cool Medieval morning and character is like the sand that makes up the castle and then reforms to become the cement that holds the skyscrapers that dot our planet. Character is the raw material while form is the product. A weak character can never make a lasting form.
The splendour of the wall of Jerusalem and the fall of Jerusalem.
The humble state of the 12 apostles and the impact of their ministry.

Victory Living

Failures teach us about the faults and errors in our characters; they help us to see the gap between our "can-be's" and our "right-now's". Because the carnal result is the form, our focus is on a God-centred thinking, which is a part of a Christ-like character. The moment you believe in Christ and His victory, is the moment you repeat the victory that Christ has achieved over death on the Cross.
The death of revolutionaries who fought for something but died for nothing eternal.
The legacy of Christ on the cross and His enduring salvation.

Romans 1:3-4 regarding His Son, who as to his human nature was a descendant of David, and who through the Spirit of holiness was declared with power to be the Son of God by his resurrection from the dead: Jesus Christ our Lord.

Being Vulnerable

Being vulnerable is taking our self-mindedness out and putting a God-mindedness into our perspective. Because the more we defend our flaws, the less of grace we allow into our lives.
I have sinned in this aspect. But so have my eyes been opened.

Exposure to Influences

The greater the exposure to the Holy Spirit, the greater the Christ-likeness. The greater the exposure to carnal living, the greater the carnal-thinking. For thought leads to action, action leads to habit, habit leads to character.
Media coverage of sexuality and rising abortion.
Peter Troung and the proximity of God in his life, and the healing miracles in the world.

Who Cares

You never know who cares until you ask; you can't read minds and neither can you dictate what people can think, nor do your unvoiced opinions affect how others care for you. But if you care enough to feel that way, chances are people care enough to care for you the way you don't think they do. The bottomline: At least 4 people in the world care about you when you are thinking that way:

1. God the Father
2. Christ the Son
3. The Holy Spirit
4. Yourself (peekaboo, you forgot that didn't you?)

History Making

History is made when people are saved by Jesus' salvation. Because our textbooks don't teach of history that lasts for eternity; the bible does. Everything honourable to the Eternal God will be history to be remembered, everything dishonourable will be mystery forgotten.

Glory

If I can do what I can do, then I am no different from another man.
If I can do what God makes me do, then God has made me different.
Galatians 1:1 Paul, an apostle - sent not from man nor by man, but by Jesus Christ and God the Father, who raised him from the dead -

Hope

The end is here when hope is lost. That is why suicides take place; people have lost hope. But the people that always hope; they never cease to rebound.

Love

Love is not measured by how people respond, but by what's inside. Because God's perfect love can never be overcome by our imperfect love.

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I aim two target growing points. Increasing my stature for the sake people who need to know that I care, and increasing my vulnerability for the sake of people who need to know that I care that they care about me.

One man can do miracles if God is by his side. I aim to be that man. And for the rest of the RPians, I aim for them to be that man/woman too. Come on, let's go get it RP.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

#80 A Flawed Bunch Of People

Flawed, you and I. So bad it hurts. An injury sustained by lack of information I can understand.

An injury with the full knowledge of the afflicter, it really hurts.

That day at service, when I was right in front, I couldn't bear to jump around and praise God because of that pain in my heart. But when I prayed, it healed me and I became alive again. Now left here in the dark, it hurts and hurts and it just hurts.

Words don't make a difference at this point. Miracles do.

And I'm not emo.

Friday, March 23, 2007

#79 Now I Know Why...

...Hmm... X_X"!

Some questions in my mind. Just makes me wonder what's real and what's not. And the true meaning of concern, thoughtfulness and family. And how can consistency be expected when consistency is not seen?

Lately I've been feeling like a dumping ground for work. I'd very much like to contribute, but it just rattles me when that contribution seems to be taken too far. Maybe I'm petty, maybe I expect too much? But I'd like to excel over just getting something done for the sake of it.

And tell me if this is a dangerous thought: I'm not perfect myself, so I should just let it be.

Because when I start to think logically, emotionall passively, the alarm lights just keep flashing non-stop. How, how, how...?

God, inspire me, don't let me lose my love for what I do due to such reasons. Let not the discouragements dampen, but the encouragements strengthen.

What's to become of the things we left behind?

Thursday, March 22, 2007

#78 I Wanna Be An English Guru!

Yeah, you read it right. I want to be an English expert.

But then again, there are times I want to be an award-winning director, a successful video editor, even an entrepreneural trail-blazer!

But today? Well, today I just want to be this:




A superhero.

In any case, I've got to prepare myself to go to a friend's house. I think I'm out of my mind; I offered to help my friend complete his work quota at not cost. The poor fella(s) got to work overnight tonight! So yeah...

But that's what friends are for!

In any case, Generation Next 2007's going to be a blast!

You absolutely have got to catch the film editing showcase on the 27th of March '07!

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

#77 Musings

Thank God, THANK GOD for finding Jerrome's handphone!

And thank God for that super helpful (store manager?) Long John Silver (PS) staff! Jerrome left his phone and we managed to get it back after going back when we realised he had lost it.

It put a smile on his face, and that really warmed my heart! Jerrome was looking fluster wahahaha bro! Then I remembered the bond the original four sheeps of Alvin (by order of accepting Christ/rededication in May/June 2005, Windez, Jerrome, Darryl, Heng Yu) had in the year 2005. Waiting for everyone of us to have our food in front of us before starting to eat. caring for each other even though we could be at loggerheads. Putting ourselves down to face each other's problems and solve them as a team. This was true solidarity!

I guess we forget times along the way, but I'm glad the de javu came when it did; right when everyone was flustered. :)

And then as I was on the train home. *BAM* Ideas flowed. Social project involving my two loves, one inborn, one acquired; books and film. Target audience? Children with special learning needs. Advantages? Dynamic, entertaining, appealing to both the visual and the auditory senses.

Wonder how it's going to work out. Ha ha.

It started with an extension onto my FYP, when I realised it could also apply to helping society!

No matter how sappy, emo, angry, happy, sad the song you listen to, your existing emotion will determine how it affects you. For example, if I'm happy, a high-powered song brings me EVEN HIGHER!

And... I WANNA SHOUT OUT LOUD! SHOUT TO THE WORLD. THAT I WILL BE VICTORIOUS, BECAUSE THE VICTOR IS WITH ME, GUIDING MY HAND, WATCHING MY STEPS!!!

You know why I love the song Shooting Stars by Home Made Kazoku? Because it's a song of hope.

Monday, March 19, 2007

#76 Busted - Year 3000

@_@

#75 Shooting Star by Home Made Kazoku

What can I say, I like it.

Shooting Star by Home Made Kazoku

Sunday, March 18, 2007

#74 Cannonball by Damien Rice

Cannonball by Damien Rice

There’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
There’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
It’s still a little hard to say what's going on
There’s still a little bit of your ghost your weakness
There’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed
You step a little closer these days
And I can´t see what´s going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to lie
Life, it taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

There’s still a little bit of your song in my ear
There’s still a little bit of your words i long to hear
You step a little closer each day
So close that I can´t see what´s going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to lie
Life, it taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon..

Stones taught me to fly
And love just taught me to cry
So come on courage
Teach me to be shy
Cause it's not hard to fall
And i don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And i don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

#73 Found My 3 Gigabyte Cache Of Missing Songs

Well, slightly more, because it's zipped up.

And right now the instrumental music's really helping. Never mind that it's all chinese love ballads. The saxophone rocks.

I've long resigned myself to the fact that I won't be a world-class saxophonist.

But that doesn't mean I won't enjoy the music it makes.

Right now I'm feeling less than enthusiastic about being a world changer.

Convince me I'm wrong.

#72 ...

I'm thinking far too much I guess. Honestly, I didn't know what came upon me there and then at the infocounter after service. I just felt so flustered. So tired.

Insomnia. And when I do fall asleep, I'm hounded by nightmares and wake up even more exhausted.

13 hours of unrestful sleep seems such a waste.

Friday, March 09, 2007

#71 I'm A Kid Through And Through

The new Hard disk drive's working fine; the only problem is that I've already used up 10% of the space! *gosh*

Anyway had a wonderful time looking through my works; super funny.

I recall the different shooting/editing mistakes; it's a pity I don't have the source files now; I was so @_@ at what I can improve on:

The video quality, the mis-cuts, the sound fades, the lame jokes, the bad acting (by me of course; I can't act for nuts!), and the keyframe animations.

What a trip.

I guess that's what passion's all about.

And a shoutout to Yin Luan, thanks for the video comments! *Die* It's not supposed to be revealed so early! Don't tell anyone until after today!

#70 I Feel Like A Dumb Grinning Geezer

Or an over-pampered brat.

For once, I feel like I have everything.

You know why?

'Cos gifts given in love and felt in love are ten times better than other gifts.

My bro bought me an external hard disk drive, 100GB space.

May not be much but.

I'm grinning ear to ear.

From the left to the right, and right to the left.

Sorry, haven't felt this way in ages.

A little respite from growing up.

Yeah! *_*

Note to self:
FYP meet tomorrow.
Wrap up video.
Plan work schedule.
Grow fat.
Praise God.
Spread the blessings.

Someone's birthday coming in two days' time.
I'm going to gatecrash.
For those who know, SHHH don't tell Darryl a.k.a. MachoHunk I'm coming.

Saturday, March 03, 2007

#69 Nightly Phantasmal Incursions

Am I going crazy? Nightmares, nightmares. Getting weirder by the night. Cutting short my natural restorative mechanism. Is this depression, depravity, or just a passing phase?

Seeing your loved ones get torned to bits by sin night by night isn't exactly restful sleep.

Could it be just me?

Friday, March 02, 2007

#68 Nightmare

Some kind of sick joke.

What exactly's the bother?